Life...

Dear, dear.... the more you live in this world, the worrier you will be because you discovered human nature. Sometimes, I think like an adult but sometimes, I am just being brainless.....When I was young, I wish to grow up as fast as I can so that I can be free. No actually.....the older you are, more responsibilities you will carried because you have inputs about certain thing.....so it's less freedom too.... plus, depression comes in when things do not goes to your way..... to summarize these.....in my opinion, these are reality a.k.a life ...Just face them......"bring it on"...

Indeed, appearance can be deceiving. When you saw a girl with a sweet simile on her face, you would definitely think that she is problem-free. However, once you go to explore more about her, she is not at all. She is just fake. A plastic... Human are all like that, including me.... sometimes I did that to cover up my true feeling. No point putting on a stupid sad face and asking for pity. No one actually care that much actually... so hold your head up high because it's not worth it.... But yes, deep inside, it hurts. People learned from experience, so do I. NO PAIN NO GAIN....

"Moonbeams sadly, will not survive in a jar" ......this is a line from the poem THE WAY THINGS ARE.......which I like it the most among the lines. Saying, we should not be overly possessive over the things that we cannot own, and that, it's okay...... straight away I will linked to my relationship with him.... he told me that,he was a possessive type of guy before.... I envy his first ex actually.....how I wish I was her.... I believe she was the happiest lady because she had dated a guy like him. But, why do they have no happy ending in the end?? Is it because they have had happy moments together in the beginning and so, there is no happy ending in the end?? At first, I don't understand and and was not able to accept it. Right now, I know that not everyone will be with the one that they loved... sometimes, letting go of someone is also a way to express love....just like my mum who lost my dad.....I bet she is living her life very well now. Sooner or later, the one that is closed to you will leave you. It's just a matter of time. It hurts but it is the way things are.... again, it is also one of the fact of life. Probably, it is not our life partner. Is that a good lesson to learn?? hmmmm.... Honestly, I am afraid of losing him. Mannn.....he is in the north and I am in the south of this state....well, that is the consequences that I have to face......and a life to experience......

I am lucky to have him. I would think of him when I am jogging and playing badminton. He motivates me in a way too. When I am tired and out of breath while jogging or wanting to give up hitting the shuttle, his face would just pops out and it motivates me. Plus, when I want to give up studying or revising, I would think of him too. In my mind, if I don't gain as much knowledge now, how am I going to be his match partner......I am being encouraged by him. Although he is not physically beside me, I am grateful that I am his girlfriend. I do think of him everyday. The more I think, the more complicated my feeling would become. It's hard to describe.....But I still like him so so much......hehehe

Everything happened for a reason. I totally believe that we know each other for a reason too, no matter good or bad, he is still important to me. I hope that he knows it and does not take something that is bad for his health. Better stop smoking if possible, it's not good for you....

EVERYTHING HAPPENED FOR A REASON......is teacher's profession is meant for me?? is this my calling?? Again, everything happened for a reason...... Who knows I would be an excellent educator in the future, just like Mdm. Angelia??And thanks to Mdm. Anne, I thanked her for letting me know it is my calling.......