He made me suffer

Dear blog,

I miss you so much. It's been a very long time since I write to you. I have a lot of things to tell you.

I am in a relationship again with a new guy. We started on 3rd May, 2012. It is complicated for me at first and we argued over quite a number of time because of Adrian. I accepted him because I wan not thinking straight. I was so childish too to accept a guy who I barely know. So stupid of me....Up until now, I am still not thinking rationally. I don't know what I really want. I guess I am just being ungrateful of what I have.

The first month of being with Daniel was unpleasant. He made me suffer emotionally and I made him suffer too. His behaviour was completely new for me. He did not behaved like Adrian. He is more childish and never going to understand me. He will never understand what I do in college. He always assume that I am free and just need to attend class during the day. He also assumed that I have nothing to do, no homework, no assignment and no exam.

I do not blame anyone but myself for getting into this trouble that I created. I compared Adrian and him on everything when things are not smooth. I know I behaved and whined like a spoiled child after every argument but Daniel will know how to cool me down and make me feel loved again. This is one of his lovely character.

For a couple of time, although we are together for about 3 month, we argued not about Adrian but about my assignment. Can he understand that I have assignments that need to be completed? I am so mad about this matter.

there was once, belinda, pik ling and me had to go to Chee Xiung's house for Mdm Allizah's assignment because the due was the next day. I told him early around 4.30pm that I cannot spend time with him that night because need to complete the assignment. He just did not understand the words that coming out of my mouth. I kept explained and explained and explained and explained and explained and explained and explained the reason of not able to talk to him that night. BUT......He just called and called and called and called and called and called and called and called and called and called until I picked it up!!!!

I picked his call and listened to him whining. Could you imagine he whined from around 8 something till almost 2am, I was unable to focus either on my assignment or on his words.

I hate him so much for being such an inconsiderate and selfish human being.
I really can't imagine I am with a thoughtless guy.
I was really out of breath at that time. I was really stressed out because of him.

Why did he need to behave and whine about not being there for him??
Why can't he understand that I was not playing around but wanted to complete my assignment??

WHY????

At some moments, I was really sicked and tired of him for making me unable to focus on my work. I was   really really mad at him at that time and really wished I am not in a relationship with such a guy.

Well, at the end, after my assignment done, my mind was clearer but I couldn't sleep. I was really really mad at him for being such an inconsiderate boyfriend.

I hate him for my sleepless night.
I hate him so much for my sleepless night.
I hate him so much for my sleepless night.

Was it necessary to make me suffer because I was unable to accompany him that night?

Please man!!