He came

I was frying keropok around 11.30am on that day. I did not expect him to call me or to ask me out for a lunch. I was so so excited and anxious. Still like 2 years ago when I received his call or had anything to do with him,  my heart beats extremely fast. My breath rate increased.
Although we are only friends, deep down inside, I know he is special to me.

He was once the love of my life.
The one that I wanted to be with.
My first love and my greatest crush.
He is just like a father, brother, friend and a counselor to me.
Yet it didn't turn out well because he is in love with a girl.

Enough about that, we had lunch in MCD. I am so happy to see him again. I never thought that I would see him here in Bintulu. He gave me a big warm hug then we ordered our food. I was so happy inside. Looking at him is enough to make me happy. Looking by his expression, he was excited to go to Sibu. He is going to propose to her and of course marry her. I am happy for both of them but at the same time, I feel so sad. Happy to see him happy. Sad to not be able to be the one he loved.

Also, I feel sad because I let this great guy go. I let him go on with his happiness.
I want him to be happy with her because i know I have no place in his heart.
They had a lot more in common. They had a lot more chemistry together.
Most of all, they are in love and in contact with each other when he was in a relationship with me.

After lunch, we went to look for a diamond ring. Unfortunately, there was no her size. Can u imagine her finger only sized 11? I think mine is 16 or something. She is damn small in size. No wonder he loves her. she is perfect in size. But also perfect in everything.

He was so precise and so careful when choosing a ring for her. I am envious but I am happy for her.
I am happy to know that they are happy together. He talks a lot about how cute she is and how funny she is. Honestly, I am not interested to know because it hurts me.

After the mission failed, we went back to MCD because my car was there. Upon leaving, we hugged. For me, it was a goodbye and take care hug. He is such a good friend actually.

I am glad that I know this great guy. Hopefully I will have one of my own one day.