Dilemma

What do you do when you know that it is wrong?
Will you still continue to do it?

My answer is YES!!
And I should not be proud of this answer.
I do feel bad everytime I let it happened. But I still continue doing it.
What is wrong with me?
Where is my faith?
Why am I always lost?

Dear God, is it because I seldom get in touch with you?
Deep down inside, I know it is Yes!!

Every single time I do it, I feel bad. But the next round I still commit this mistake.
I really hate myself for being so emotional and stupid.

Yes, I do feel insecure.
I do afraid bad things are going to happen.
I do afraid that my future will be ruined.
I do afraid to go to hell.
I do know that it is a wrong thing to do.
I do know I committed a big sin....
But why everytime I am not strong enough to resist it?
Prayer....

Dear God, I am so sorry once again for committing the same crime. I know it is wrong.
Dear God, please give me the wisdom to follow what you have taught us in the bible.
Let me not fall astray. I want to be closer to you Lord.
I want to be closer to you so that I will not led by the worldly things and mindsets.

Dear God, I earnestly pray that with the help of the Holy Spirit, I may not fall into sin again. Especially the sin that I know it is wrong and hurt you deeply. Amen.

I really don't know what is going on with me today. I feel so good when I'm with Dominic but at the same time feel so bad when I'm with him. I am happy with him, but I am not happy with him.
What do  really want?
What is the thing that makes me alive?

I am so ashamed of myself. Shame on me!!!!!!!!!

What I will do next is not to be in a private place with him. This is the best way.