I am so proud of myself

Today was a great experience to do something for God. It was a long time since I did something for the Lord. I actually had ran for 5km this morning. We prayed and ran at the same time. We prayed for everything that we wanted to pray. I felt so free to pray to the Lord. During the running, I did not felt any tired as compared to running in the institute's field. It was fun as this Run For The Nation program is joined by all the runners from KL and Kuching. My Saturday morning had spent happily.

Of course, after return to the hostel, the impact not that strong. My hostel routine began by washing the clothes that I left aside for one week. hehehe.....

Sometime, I really wish that I am busy all the time. Making ourselves busy is a good cure to ease the emotional break down. Plus, makes people ignore all the painful feelings. I made myself busy and tried my very best to forget a person, once I consider very important. Indeed, I missed him before and stupidly thought he is my last boyfriend. However, after what I had told him, I don't think he will talk to my again. And I am very sure!! So sad to have actually said that.... Out spoken is a mistake? I told him that because my instinct told me that I should. At the same time, I wanted to make our relationship better, so that we can know each other well. However, it turned out very wrong. Everything had gone wrong. The more I expect him to treat me well, I just got disappointed. The best solution now is you go your way and I go mine.Even though it is going to be hurtful at first, I believe time will fix everything. If at that time he can do it, so do I.

Maybe one of the reason we become like this is because his perception and mine were totally different. He said he will keep away from me. Goodness Gracious....I was expecting some explanation, but it turned worse. Why is he keep avoiding? I want to know why he gives me up so easily? Is that one of his way to jilt me?( even though we are not in a relationship) I doubted it. Fine, lets make this clear. Lets go back to our original life. All I have to do is thank God for giving you to me as a special friend who helped me a lot before. I appreciated it so much. Now God wanted to take it back. All I need to do is keep myself busy and busy. Not forget to pray and ask for His strength as well.

Actually, there is a bright side of what is happening. Maybe God wants me to learn to be a strong teenager. Again, my tagline, NO PAIN NO GAIN. Life has its ups and downs. Positive thinking is vital to learn and experience hard things. Plus, I am just 18 years old. Nothing to afraid, Only God and still God. By the way, I thank God for had sent me him so that I may know and be friend with him.