Besides, most of the time when we talk, it is always you the one who do the talking. The worse part is you kept complaining about this and that, especially food. To tell the truth, I really wanted to see and INVESTIGATE all the words that coming out from your mouth. I want only the truth. You know why I hardly believe you and always called you a " zhi lian" Actually, I really mean it. You talked as if you are the hero, you excelled in many sports, you manipulate every words, you can do this and that. Such a B.S. You added in a lot of drama. Why don't you just tell the exact thing that was happening to you. You didn't need to add drama to get my attention to listen to you.
The topic that I hate the most was when you told me about your financial problem. You said that your ATM card was with your father. You left it with him because you wanted to learn to be independent. You told me you wanted to learn to manage your money. Gosh, you aspect me to believe you? Sorry to say, I did not believe you at this point. You also told me you only have RM10 in your wallet and actually shown your wallet to me. What is the point???? If you don't have money, you can borrowed from me. You don't need to act pity and said you haven smell rice for a few days. You know what, when I knew this, the first thing that came across my mind was, IS THIS A HINT FOR ME TO ACTUALLY GIVE YOU MONEY TO BUY RICE? You just need to tell me what you need. I hate fake people. If one day, you read this particular blog, you will be surprised to find me as a very particular person. But I don't care. I just need to tell something about my emotion instead of someone.
I was an idiot before because I thought you really care about me. Eventually, you were not. Or even you were care about me, I don't feel it at all. The problem is either you or me or both......Actually, I don't care about how passionate you towards your music. I knew very well the fact that you like music very much. Go ahead with your dream. It is your choice. Talking about choice, you are free actually. And I should be a more intelligence girl that should stick and focus on my studies.I was a fool to bear the pain of how you had affected my feeling. Does it worth it?
The point is, when you talk please don't add in something that is not true. You really think I am an idiot? It was really a heartache when you act stupid when I asked you something. Do you treat me as a human being? Seriously!! Why your attitude is worse than my friend? Why you always reply me with stupid short answer? Is that a hint from you to me that I should back off? If that really is a hint, please don't let it be long. Because I don't want to feel down for a long period.
Why you always act like a holy person and listen to orchestra music? Because of that I thought you are a gentleman and a romantic person. Sadly, you wasn't. You are too childish and a very good actor. Please don't act in front of me. You are so fake and it only makes me hate you day by day. I am telling you the truth. The things that I hated the most is you did not text me lately. I still can considerate that. So I made the move to text you to ask you how are you or some sort like that. Most of your respond was short word. If not short words, you definitely mentioned about lack of money.
Maybe I worried to much for the things I shouldn't worry. You are a grown up now. You know what is the best for yourself. Moreover, I knew that you and me are just friends and not more than that. I know my limit and cannot blame you for anything that caused me to be like this(complaining about you). I knew very clearly that I have no right to instruct you to text me everyday. However, why we can't be just like before? You texted me every morning. Every morning...... you made my day a wonderful day. Sometime, I really wish that I just stick to my books because books don't hurt my feelings. HERE WE GO AGAIN, KEEP MOVING....NO PAIN NO GAIN.....
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