Stop Missing Him, Mummy.

If possible, stop missing him or don't even try to think about him. I was helpless to see you crying. I don't know what to say and how to comfort you. I was afraid the more I comfort you, the louder we will cry. I know it is extremely tough for you to be strong after all that you had gone through especially losing someone whom you shared your life with for 20 years. I don't even reach that age yet. It is just like losing another part of you. No one can live without joy. That is why a person without spiritual joy goes after physical pleasures. Thus, experience the happiness of hungering and thirsting for God alone. And Lord Jesus, increase her hunger for you and show her the way to everlasting peace and happiness. So that she will be truly happy.

Sometimes, you are a body without a soul. I hardly can hear you laugh joyfully since that day. I know it is difficult to make you happy from the inside out because I know it takes time to find back the other part of you. You know what... It cuts my heart to see you pretend that you are not crying because your face shows the effect of your tears. Yes, you seem tough and I really salute you for that. However, sometimes, I really wish that you can cry all your sadness or loneliness out. So that you will be emotionally free and have a peace of mind.

Whatever it is, mummy, you are still the best human being I have ever known. And I am so lucky to be one of your child. You are still as wonderful as before. I hope that you don't look back but keep moving forward. Let the past be the past because we can't put our hands on it anymore. It shall become memories for us. I know it is easy for the me to ask you to stop thinking but it is difficult for you to forget it. Always remember that we are ready to support you and accompany you if you need us. I believe that you shall be more blessed one day.