Was he worried??

Yes, I think he was. It was just my wild guess though. After hanging out with his friend, I was interviewed by him. He asked whether I will like him if I knew his friend before him. Goodness Gracious….what was he thinking? He texted me and I was happy because he cares. I thought he was giving me a complete freedom and didn’t even want to bother about it. However, he was afraid. He said he was afraid of losing me. I was so touched to hear that. Well, I guess that was why he asked a lot and wanted me to make a comparison between his friend and him.

He is trying not to be possessive because it will certainly ruin a relationship. He learned from his previous relationship. It must be really difficult for him at that time. Indeed, his friend is a nice guy. He talked in a very friendly way and that made both of us feeling less awkward. When he asked me would I like his friend or not if I knew him before him or if his friend is older than me, I am completely sure I will not. Why? Because the feeling is not there. Plus, his friend is not my cup of tea. But he is really a good guy.

Enough for that……

Last night (I mean LATE MIDNIGHT), we chatted. It was an enjoyable chat. I got to know him more too. I never thought he likes to watch National Geographic channel and all the documentary channels. And I was surprised to know that he watches cooking show as well. And that makes him special. I just love him so much. I am so lucky to have him. Moreover, he made me likes him even more when he asked me whether he can accompany his ex when she returned from New Zealand or not. To tell the truth, of course I won’t allow him to. I am not an angel and there is still devil inside of me. Paradoxically, I wanted him to go because he promised her before. It is not good to break a promise. But still, I am a devil. He brought this question up and it showed he cares about my feeling. He is so nice to me. How can I be so mean?

Through our conversation, I know that he always wanted to label himself as “I am not handsome, a “pai kia” face”….. This guy really has a low self-esteem when I heard him saying this. But I don’t think so. His “pai kia” face make him more man though. So, not handsome so what?? “Pai kia” face so what?? He is still on demand. He said I should be proud. Hmmm….well, I am afraid and proud. At the same time, I am still so grateful that he did not reject me on that day. I know I am not pretty but I still say I am pretty. Who cares what others say?? It’s their mouth…..XD

At that time, I know it was very late already but I still wanted to chat with him. I don’t even want to end that conversation……Don’t be silly, girl…… Anyway, I truly believe that this particular guy that I am with, is the best. I thanked God because He made me see him.