You and me...

Today is our first month together. I believe this is a great beginning for both of us. Even though we are living in a total different place and environment, I believe we are going to be great together. Indeed, being in a long distance relationship is a challenge for both of us. I can’t deny that in the future we are going to face a lot of ups and downs. Sadly, I don’t have the chance to be by your side to support you and to encourage you when you needed it. I guess that is also one of the challenges. But, it is a good beginning though for both of us as we get to know each other slowly.

I am afraid that I can’t give you everything you want yet. It’s merely because I am afraid of the Creator. That is the main reason. I know He is watching over us. For I know, “THE BODY IS A GIFT NOT YOUR PERSONAL PLAYTHING” just like what is the song, Say Yes To Sex by Father Stan. Furthermore, I truly believe that, “ONCE YOU’RE A NEWLYWED YOU CAN GO AHEAD, ENJOY THE HOLY BED THAT’S WHAT GOD SAID” and so, I want to keep it until I am married. So sorry my dear...

You’ve asked me whether we can have sex or not. You’ve asked more than once and I can tell that you really meant it. What are you actually thinking, my dear? For me, I sincerely hope that our relationship is not based on sexual love. It is a sin to have sex before marriage. When I asked you to wait for me ( i know it is going to be tough), you seemed unwilling. I can’t blame you though. It is my choice for I had chose you. I seriously believe I am not making a mistake to choose you. Yet, I think it is also my fault because I didn’t tell you earlier that I will not have sex with anyone except my husband. I am really sorry for I can’t please you sexually yet. But I really hope you will understand.

I am your girlfriend and I hope you’d show some respect to me. You said you want my precious so that I won’t leave you. I never thought of leaving you. You know what.... Ever since the day that I confess my feeling to you, I’ve made my commitment to be loyal to you. I won’t betray you. I keep my word. Why don’t you have some faith in me? Why??? Or maybe you expect I can give you sexual pleasure. Could we bear these things together instead?

About the request to send a nude photo..... I was totally shocked that you requested it. It is totally immoral just like reading other people’s diary. And, Do you know that it humiliates me...you make me feel like a slut... do you know that you made me feel so cheap.... so cheap..... Do you know how to respect me? I felt terrible for myself too. I offered to let you watch live. I seriously felt that I am such a brainless person for actually had the thought to do that. But then you refused. I was relieved actually. You insisted to have my nude photo. It was hard to reject your request. So I thought of giving you something else. You liked it but too bad you still want your request to be granted. I am really sorry. My answer is still no.

Yes, I am cold-blooded. I tried to act rationally even though I like you so much. Still, in my opinion, we still don’t understand each other well and we talk less but type more....