Love my family or not?

Today is the second week of my holiday. It is still on going but I have to stick with my assignments which I should be finish doing those. During my first week holiday, my holiday was spent in the hospital. My dad was admitted to the hospital because he was too weak and always vomit after coming back from Kuching. So my mum brought him to the hospital. Since then, she became a busy woman again. She had to go to work and "work night shift to take care of my sick dad" for one whole week. I was so pity her.

However, I did not see any tired expression on her face as she is very dedicated. I took care of my dad during the day and my mum took care of him at night. Sometimes I really wanted to escape or not even coming back from Kuching because it was so stressful staying in a negative environment with a lots of assignments. Being an elder sister is tough as everyone depends on you. Of course I will feel tired sometimes and need someone or something to express myself. As we all know, life is not always go according to what we plan. When I feel down or need someone to talk to, no one there. So I learn to be more independent. When I want to go out with my friends, I am not willing to leave my mum alone to take care of my dad.

But I am so blessed that I can experience the pain of will losing someone that is closed to me. I can't say that I love my dad because I don't think I love him. I just carry out my responsibility as a child and not let him disappointed. To tell the truth, I don't know what love is. A new friend of mine told me before what he knows about love. But I still don't get it.

In the bible, the meaning of love is.....love is patient,love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does nor delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Beautiful isn't it?

According to that, it is very clear that I never love a person before. But one thing for sure, I love my family, especially my mum. When she gets sick, she will also do the house work. As her daughter, I understood that she is not able to do all things. She will be tired too so it is time for me to take care of her and of the family. She is great and I want to be like her one day.