My family

Well, it is hard to describe my family. It is hard as I have a lot of things to tell. A lot of things had happened lately. My father's cancer become worse day after day. We had done everything to cure his cancer. But still, no change. Luckily, he is able to eat and drink. But the pain still inside. He feel it but we don't. How would we know? When he said very pain, ya,it's pain...but how pain he has gone through? We really don't know.

My mother is a poor woman since my dad got sick. She is the father and the mother in the house. She also suffer because she had spend most of her time and energy taking care of my father. She had lost her weight since then. It is definitely a heart breaking to see her own husband suffer. I still remember way back in January 2009, when my father was diagnosed with stomach cancer in Miri after he realized he had no appetite very often. He was sent to Columbia hospital in Miri to remove his infected stomach. At that time, my mum had become a very busy woman as she had to be by his side very often. She is become a more positive woman. You know why I say so? It is because she doesn't complain about anything during this difficult time. This good quality if hers I should learn. She is really a role model to me. furthermore, she is very positive after knowing my dad had a stomach cancer. She did not blame anyone including God because of his sickness. All she did was to bear with it and face it wholeheartedly. In my opinion, it really took a enormous courage to face this cruel reality.

Right now, the cancer cell has spread to my dad's pancreas. He had difficulties to eat and to move. When he eats, he will vomit out the food. According to the doctor, his stomach and pancreas had failed to function properly. All he need right now is comfort as the medical cannot help much. The medical either radiotherapy or chemotherapy, will make the body system worse if he continue to undergo those treatment. The doctor's advise is make him comfortable during these time. You know how sad it is to hear that from the doctor. Miracle will happen or not? I doubted so much. I do believe in miracle but not now. My faith is not strong enough.

Honestly, I don't know whether I had prepare to lose him or not. Whatever happens, it definitely will happen for a reason. That is for sure. But, I am really thankful because I HAVE A WONDERFUL FAMILY. I thank for the responsible father and loving mother I have. I thank for my siblings who are supportive and obedient. I thank the Lord for giving me a parent's love. And most importantly, I thank youLord for giving me life.